digestive system

we all get a little lost once in a while. that's alright. the important thing is finding your way back.

i need to take time to fix things without disconnecting myself from the rest of the world. it's hard but i feel that i will lose myself all the more without something to hold on. maybe over the summer.

you said to promise you to always go for what is challenging and never settle for the old ways. more than what i want to do in life, or what next step i should take, or what academic load that is thrown at me, what is challenging for me now is finding myself. even i can't really say what is or what is not me. i just know it's not the same. it's only when you're finally out of high school that you realize the values it has imprinted and just how much of servant-leadership is in my system for me to ever forget. it's like if you asked me describe to you what a leader is, the first thing that will pop into my mind is servant. it's that ingrained in me that it feel like i am incomplete without it. and that's how i feel now. incomplete. it's not that i am unhappy with not content with where i am right now, there's just something i need to do more. it's not even for my own personal gain anymore; it's really because i feel the need to give back, i feel the need to serve, like i have always done.

i will keep my promise. :)