i'll light your match

summer is ending soon. and i haven't done anything great with my summer either. it's been pretty dull actually. and very fast, compared to last summer. or the one before that. i think i found it fast because of the lack of bumming around. it's always go here on one day or do this on another day. i haven't had 3 days in a row this summer that i could say hey, i have nothing to do so i'll just watch movies/tv series the whole day or sleep and eat all i want. no, it's always rest this morning but later in the afternoon i have to do this. or i have to finish this today because i need it for tomorrow. sure, this summer was productive but i wouldn't really call it fun.

not to mention the stress i dealt with/am dealing with this summer. you can't blame me for not enjoying it. as much as i believe stress pushes me to work well, i still believe that i need a break, and i need that break in summer. but i only have 2 more days left and it's definitely not enough.

birthday's coming up. i can't say i'm really excited for it either. i wish i could be a little happier for it though.

if there's only one thing good about this summer ending, it's that there's finally rain.

on a completely unrelated note, i just realized that it's true what they say - you won't realize how much you miss someone until they're actually not around.