break heart

He's trying me again. And it hurts so much. It's like heartbreak but a hundred times worse. Just when I think my life is okay, He shakes things up all over again. But I guess it's time to accept that my life will always be like that. He's testing me if I can be strong. I wish I could be but it's so painful. And when it finally hits me, I'll probably cry buckets then eventually let it go. But I trust Him. I know it's always for the best.