perfect shade

i'm going to sound really evil but i wish you have nothing to do with me and my life. i'll live mine the way i want to.

burday

i like this birthday. really simple yet really sweet. happy 19 to you. here's to your last teen year. :)

19

ten things i promise myself before i turn 19:

1. do not check her facebook account anymore
2. try to be a girl
3. fight the bad days
4. have a little more faith in yourself
5. faithfully
6. don't stay complacent
7. do not touch alcohol
8. be thankful for people in your life
9. don't say yes to everything, because you really can't do everything
10. learn to stick to your promises

i've always wondered what it feels like to deactivate your fb account on your birthday.

i'll light your match

summer is ending soon. and i haven't done anything great with my summer either. it's been pretty dull actually. and very fast, compared to last summer. or the one before that. i think i found it fast because of the lack of bumming around. it's always go here on one day or do this on another day. i haven't had 3 days in a row this summer that i could say hey, i have nothing to do so i'll just watch movies/tv series the whole day or sleep and eat all i want. no, it's always rest this morning but later in the afternoon i have to do this. or i have to finish this today because i need it for tomorrow. sure, this summer was productive but i wouldn't really call it fun.

not to mention the stress i dealt with/am dealing with this summer. you can't blame me for not enjoying it. as much as i believe stress pushes me to work well, i still believe that i need a break, and i need that break in summer. but i only have 2 more days left and it's definitely not enough.

birthday's coming up. i can't say i'm really excited for it either. i wish i could be a little happier for it though.

if there's only one thing good about this summer ending, it's that there's finally rain.

on a completely unrelated note, i just realized that it's true what they say - you won't realize how much you miss someone until they're actually not around.

seeing things again

this is going to sound really stupid but i think i've been having self-esteem issues. i think i should blame facebook.